Why do I?

I feel like I am coming into a stage where I am all about growing in my knowledge of the Bible and who God is in His book, but this growing knowledge is taking a big hit on my relationship with Him.

I have become so consume in study and learning that I don't take time for prayer, to seek after Him while I am learning and growing.

This seems like such a silly thing, How can you possibility be hurting in your relationship in the Lord by reading the Bible too much? But it happens. It happens to a lot of people actually. I hear about it from seminary students. We get confident in knowing who God is that we do things without Him for his name.

I think the struggle is never-ending. I think that as long as we live in a fallen world, we will have fallen habits and ideas, we will skip out on what is most important.

I want to keep spending time reading the Bible. But I need to be intentional to seek God before His book that teaches me about Him.

I am in a hard season of life. I choose to grab onto the Bible, but not God Himself. Why am I so willing to only take a half step to seek Him? Why am I not praying? What is causing me to make that part silent amidst the rest of the things we do to live as Christians?