This summer has been a whirlwind, most days I felt overwhelmed by all that I needed to do in my new role at camp, and angry how my co-office workers had nothing to do really, but not have the ability or willingness to help with all that was overwhelming on my shoulders. Well this fall much hasn't changed on that since, though now, instead of feeling like I'm drowning, I feel like I'm swimming laps in a large body of water, looking ahead and hoping the waves die down in size. Ham and I haven't talked at all since Iast mentioned that text conversation this summer. I am content in that. I occasionally think about him and pray for him, but mostly have a burden to pray for his little sister, a college freshman that I can't even remember her name.
This past week, we had an outdoor Ed group at camp. I wasn't involved with them at all, but I needed one of the teachers to come to the office and fill out some paperwork for a notary that drove up. Her last name was ham, but she pronounced it different than the guy I always talked about, and thought nothing more of it. One of the girls in my office REALLY connected with her. And was telling a bunch of us all that she had in common with her, and about her life. It at the time reminded me of ham, but thought nothing of it, they went to the same church thought maybe they knew each other but never asked. They left yesterday, last night I remember that how we pronounce the hams name is fictional and in a quick Facebook search discover that my co-workers new best friend is really the ham's sister-in-law.
We have an all staff beach party tomorrow, pretty sure my co-worker invited them to join us. If they are there, I'm going to take a pic with them and text it to ham. Not sure how this would actually go down, but I've been praying since last night, that in all of this. I will get to see ham tomorrow and that we are in a place where I can greet him with a hug.
