When Marriages Stop Working

I was giving my favorite volunteer at camp a hard time last week for being in such a bad mood. After being with him for a while I quickly realized that he was a little more off than just being in a bad mood. After he left the room, I asked my boss if he knew what was going on in his life.      His wife was leaving him, and there isn't much hope for them getting back together.

My heart broke. 

Comparing life to TV

I been binge watching Grey's Anatomy this weekend. Today after the 4 episode of the morning I had a realization. The drama and the things that the characters are doing through in season 5 are a lot bigger deal than they were in season 1.

They have been hard things all the way through, but they keep getting more and more intense. Main characters are dying. The hospital is dealing with huge lawsuits and money issues; mergers are happening, and the main characters are struggling in knowing what to do.

Becoming Weaker Instead of Stronger

I don't know how people handle tough situations gracefully and unemotionally day-in and day-out. I don't know how people keep it all together and not break down and cry everytime they have to face something hard.

This week has been a struggle for me. Our group at camp this week wasn't orginized, which meant that I wasn't organized. The reason why they were a mess was valid, but they still didn't take care of things the way that they should have making me a mess.

Get Outside

This past week I have gotten up at 5:20 each morning, but on my shorts and hiking shoes and have done a quick 3-mile hike before going to work. It has been the best! I feel good in the day. I am more ready to do my job. Today, I was off and slept in. I made it all the way til 2:00 pm until I was itching for those muscles in the back of my legs to burn as I climb that steep hill. So I changed into my brand new workout clothes and went on my hike.

My time was the best of the week, (I think being awake for a few hours helped with that) and feel so alive right now. And I feel like I am allowed to eat a protein shake afterward which is a win-win (I'm pretty sure I love protein shakes more than milkshakes and they are overall really good for you-- this recipe is 1/1/2 frozen banana, protein powder mix, mega greens mix, peanut butter and almond milk)

This time out in the woods has been good for me. I first started to help  tighten up my mushy legs and to help melt a few of the many pounds I gained this past winter. But, it has been helping my soul the most. I need this hour a day to use my muscles, to be quiet, to listen to podcasts. Putting all of those things together does something inside of me that changes me in a very positive way. It brings me closer to the Lord and lets me be open with my relationship with him.

The Embarrassment of Singleness

This week is camp staff training week. It has been a whirlwind of things going on around me the last few days: welcoming up new summer staff, team building, training, chapel sessions, and devos. Trying to meet and remember what name goes with what face all while they tell me facts about themselves and catalog that in my mind. In the midst of all the fun and excitement around me. I have been struggling with my purpose, stage of life, feeling adequate.

It all started the first night of staff training. The full time was being introduced to the summer staff. My boss introduced himself and then talked about his wife and how great his two kids are. Then he introduced my manager and his sweet wife and their 5-month-year-old baby, Then single me was introduced, with no-one else, then another manager with his sweet wife and kids, and then another leadership person with his cute picture perfect wife. There was a total of 4 single people introduced; I wasn't the only one. But, being sandwiched around all these lovely families made me feel so pathetically single.

My Favorite Place In Denver

I LOVE Denver. Being away made me forget how much I love this city. I love how there are hiking trails all over the city and it truly had the best blend of nature and city an area.

I love the culture, I love the people. I love how things operate. People are active. People are friendly and things just go so well in this city.


I have a favorite place in Denver. It is here, REI. I am not really into climbing gear. But I love old brick buildings, a large coffee shop with both indoor and outdoor seating, their free parking and that it is the "trailhead" to these amazing trails along the river and the best walk to 16th street mall.

 It makes me so happy to be here. Thankfully, last weekend we got to sit in the coffee shop drinking coffee with an old friend and chat here for a few hours.

I love this place so much. I hope you have a favorite place in your city!