Fun Comes From the Seasons of the Unknown

What makes life fun?

I have been thinking about that in the back of my since I was writing my post last night. There are always fun events in our lives, what what makes those certain seasons of our lives, fun seasons?

This morning while I was sitting on my back porch reading, this line came to me. This line answered the question, What makes life fun?

"Tackling  the unknown with people who are just as scared as you"

This made so much sense to me. I always have had so much fun in a seasons of my  life when everything in front of me is new, and I am doing the new things with people who have never done it before as well.

I LOVED my freshman year of college: I went to a brand new place, figured out a brand new system of education, lived with new people and had those people to navigate those new adventures with. Every year new things were in front of us to accomplish. Every year there was a fear of the unknown. You just had to be brave and make it through it, and the process of doing that is so incredibility fun. That is basically the scenario of the year after college (a lot of my college friends spread across the country and I basically had to make a bunch of new friends for this year) And the year of my first internship.

Then life comes along. I stopped starting new adventures and became grounded. I was in places where I was limited in peers, a place where I felt comfortable. I often fear the unknown where I am at, but the unknown isn't normally in front of me, it is something that I have to pursue. Outside of my irrational fear of living in the state of California, my life is very very secure. I have a very secure job, my job provides me with a house, pretty good pay, insurance, I get to walk to work everyday. It is a very safe place to be.


I used to think that the fear of the unknown was holding me back. I used to feel like it was stealing joy from me. And though at times it was really really hard (because the fear of the unknown is really hard) it made that season of my life amazing.

You feel something inside of you spark when you accomplish something that you thought that you didn't have it in you to do. You feel this overwhelming hope overflowing in you, when you discover that  everything in your life doesn't crumble into pieces -- when everything in your life looked like that it was going to crumble.

This makes my my season of my life really hard. I had no choice in my early 20's but to be brave and do things now to make my life better. Now, I have a good life, it is a bigger risk to step away from what I have been establishing over the past few years to feel the rush of fun you get from the unknown.

In reality, the security that I feel right now is false. There can be a forest fire that wipes out my house, job, possessions in a single day. I could get fired, I could get really sick, I could... the list is really endless of all the possibilities of things that could rock and change my entire life.

But I feel safe. I think the chances of everything in my life crumbing staying were I am is very small. But the question is still in front of me. Do I want to do what is comfortable, or do I want to do the unknown?  That is what I really need to decide. That is what I need to figure out for myself.