Apology and fake blog

I wrote this blog below this morning. And I hate it! I hate that I wrote it and think that it was okay for me to post it. It's not me. It's me posing, trying to be one of those bloggers who take a stand, has tons of followers. That are really cool and opinionated. If you read my blogs you quickly realize I'm not really good at this whole following Christ thing-- but I made myself sound that way in what I wrote. I HATE blogs and articles that intentionally speak "woe is me" "I chose this great calling, and see how much I suffer and work to be this amazing being"  and what I wrote earlier today is on that track. I don't blog to make stands or opinions, I blog to share my story, thoughts struggles, and real life with you-- for me to go back and see all that I have grown in or consistently need to work on.  Part of me wanted to just delete it and be done with this--- but I felt that just swept my problem under the rug, but I want to be real and make it clear that I don't like that I did this, and want to go back to the Becky way of blogging.
Ps. I do really love the church family photo word art that I put together for that blog. That's really me!
Rebuttals to church articles
I have read so many articles lately on the church- and there has been a common underling theme in them all, the church defines your faith in God, and the only place you will interact with other believers.

I AM NOT here to knock on the church-- I love my church dearly, it has greatly impacted and shaped who I am in Christ.  But, there are so many things in my life that effect and help me grow and know God outside of the church, that we need to give that credit where it is do.

 And let's face it that the millennial life, doesn't always line up with a good church attendee life-style. We move ALL the time (constantly restarting the search of a new church) work strange hours, (sometimes through all 5 service times offered) don't get married til we are old. (Making it so people really don't know what to do with you, outside to set-you up with other people they don't know what to do with--which is just awkward for all) 

So below I listed some of the ways I have God involved in my life in the physical side of living outside of my church involvement:

1. Listen to podcasts as I get ready for the day. I'm not really a morning person. Being still and reading Gods word when I wake-up is asking WAY TOO MUCH! Too much thinking and tiredness wrapped up in this. But listening to podcasts- easy. I don't do it everyday-- sometimes I need to hear "waka-waka" on a loop to convince me to put my jeans on and blow-dry my hair. But when I choose to listen to podcasts, I get lots of wisdom and insight at the start of the day. I learn and remember to love and grow in The Lord -the whole point of this life. With podcasts, you can hear the messages from your church that you may or may not of made it to this past weekend; or any other church of your choosing. It's amazing! 

2. I have friends who love The Lord  I have friends who love Jesus that don't go to my church. In fact, most of my friends love Jesus, but I only have 2 friends that go to my church. Making friends at church is actually hard. Especially when you only go to big church on Sundays. But, there are other amazing Christians in my life that I can be friends with and grow with. Hold on to the christian friends that you made in college, have phone dates with them often. Pray with them over the phone. It's really really weird, but amazing. 

3. I hang out with my co-workers-- and even do bible-study with them i work at a Christian camp, all of my co-workers are Christians and we live on top of this mountain a full hour away from anything- we hang-out a lot. I may not make it to church, but I intentially grow in The Lord amoungst these people, that should count for something right? 

4. I pray and read my Bible

I may not be the best at this, but it's a center theme of going to church, might as well bring that lesson home. And do this even if I didn't get my weekly reminder from that church building, right? 

Remember: it's not about what you know about The Lord, it's about how we love him and love the people in our lives. 

If you hang-out in a church for a couple of weeks, you will quickly learn the two greatest commandments for believers "love The Lord your God with all your heart, soul and strength, and love your neighbor as yourself." Once we know this, we need to actively live it out.