Brewing

I'm sitting at my desk right now, so angry at my boss. I think that I need to talk to him, but I'm so mad at him. I feel like he doesn't deserve or want to hear HOW mad I am at him. I don't think that I am that special, but I do know that me leaving job at this moment would really hurt both my boss and business of camp. So much of me want to just stop and screw them over. It's wrong really wrong, but I feel like that's the only way to make my hurt feelings justified. I think in this moment I understand cutting because I want to to anything to justified my pain towards others, if that pain was pointed back at my self- well it makes sense in this twisted mindset. (Ps I am NOT going to walk out on my job or cut myself--I got enough self control at this moment to prevent that) 

I know they hard moments will past, but man does it suck in the here and now.