Skip to me, timing is everything

It's when of those days where I have a lot of stuff to do at work, but somehow seem to continue to waste time, looking at skip's photos online. Amazed at how incredible they are, blown away by all the adventures he has experienced, and puzzled in how God is going to make this traveling boy be apart of my so-settled American life.

 I am really missing having a guy in my life. But this experience of faithfully waiting has made me now in a place where I don't want anyone to come into it who isn't skip. 

I really want to see him. Even if it's just a short visit, I'll gladly take a day or two, a few hours even. I want to laugh with him. I want to hear what is going on in his life,talk about the small things, hold his hand, remember that his is a real person. Not just this amazing friend from the past. 

I'll even take a FaceTime conversation, a Skype call, a Facebook chat... Anything really. I want him to reach out and acknowledge that we know each other. That he at least wants to reconnect in any form. 

I need to start making it my prayer that The Lord will connect us again. As much as I want it to be soon, I am wanting it more to be Gods way. Though I have become this person who is crazied with the "give-mes" right now ( I want to buy up EVERYTHING! new earrings, jeans, furniture, make-up, facewash, shoes etc. I want it all) my heart is different with skip.  I want my feeling to be put to the side and God works in this as he sees the way it is best. Both for skip and I, and the influence our relationship has on others. 

It's unique, it's hard, it's the best experience God could have me be doing right now. 

May God work super-naturally in me now and always and that though time is passing between skip and I connecting, that he will bond our hearts as he needs at this time.