Flight mode

I am having major issues. I'm in flight mode BIG TIME! I really really want to just quit my job and walk away. I'm done hearing all the praise and emphasis on this new camp that is premiering for one week this summer. I'm done feeling alone at my job. I'm done hearing fake encouragement from really fake people. I'm done with people undervaluing our guests and overvaluing themselves. I'm done with having staff being set in their ways and have the staff work around what is best for them.  

I talked to my boss about it tonight. He is really good. He MAKES me talk, he really wants to listen. He keeps saying "what else, I know you want to say more" but he is my boss, a lot of what is bothering is kinda connected to him in some ways. And he hears a lot of crap from a lot of ppl. He doesn't need to hear mine on top of it all. 

In reality, I don't know what all is wrong with me. I think if I had to boil it down I feel unsupported and alone at work and that no one is there to help me out. I don't have a safe person to talk through decisions with with actually has the time and ability to do that with me. I don't have anyone helping me out. I feel like people are that I work with mad at me all the time for making them make food, running activities and cleaning up messes. Im not a strong person. I am not a natural leader. I don't feel the right to say anything ever-- it's my issue, not theirs. And I don't want to deal with my issues, I just want to go.  RIGHT NOW! 

---and what I think is the worst of this all is all I want to do is leave, and I have a boss who will listen to my problems, seek me our and ask me" what is going on with you today, and how can I make it better" who actually has that in life?! And why do I want to leave so badly this environment?