Called that old roommate...

I called my old roommate today that ham and I talked to last night. It was hard. She told me that my best friend and direct roommate in college had a thing with ham like a year and a half ago. She made it seem like a full pledge long- distance relationship with a break-up and everything. Part of me doesn't believe this- my roommate of 4 years surely would let me. Right?! Or least not encourage me to move forward with the same guy. It really bothers me that there's a possibility that happened.it bothers me that I may be excited about a guy that one of my closest friends rejected!! I think that is the hardest part of me to swallow!! All the other crap I'm okay with- but this is hard!!! And sodang shallow of me!   As much as I struggle with this here in the moment I shouldn't let it! I think I need to see ham in the big picture. It's hard when we aren't interacting with ppl outside of us. My college roommates only know college ham. But he is a new guy now. Completely different than before, I can't let harsh words about them effect me. My my old roommate yesterday had nothing nice to say about anything or anybody- so I really should let it all go. But it's hard really dang hard.