Hard days and setting up interviews

Last Friday, everything felt like it blew up in my face, but I was going to deal with it calmly and rationally. I faked that emotion the whole weekend, I kinda fell apart yesterday and today was the day of ALL melt-downs. Mascara running mess is what I became.

I was sitting at my desk frozen, eyes filled with water about to burst at the seams, I text my friend and ask if I can sit at her house and have a melt-down. and Boy did I have a melt-down.

Sadly, my friend is also my bosses wife, and she MADE me tell her husband all that was going on, which he was pissed to listen to. I was a mess, embarrassed that I was a mess and really wanted everything in the world to go away. Wishing that I was all set to leave this place and start my new job in the mid-west which I never heard back from.

I just left the office at 11:30 that day, and I didn't go back until 1:30.

I had a meeting both with my boss and manager, which I flipping didn't want to have. I hate these, but it turned out okay. It really boiled down to me feeling overwhelm and that not functioning anymore. My email on my phone has been buzzing like crazy today, every business sending me their Labor Day emails.

I pulled out my phone from my pocket. It was an email from the camp that I applied to about a month ago, that I haven't heard from in 3 weeks.

They are very interested in me! They had soemthing come up at camp where they had to put their search on hold for a few weeks but want to interview me! and my interview on facetime is tomorrow.

I don't know how to process this, I don't know how I feel about it (okay I feel every emotion about it)

But it is going to happen. I hope it goes well. If it doesn't, I'm okay with that, I made it to the final 3, that is showing that they didn't cut me first.

The important things.

My interview is tomorrow at 8:00am pacific time, pray for me if you think of it.