Hurt feelings and a scared heart

I've been a little sensitive lately. There's a new girl at camp. She is living at my house, just moved in last night. I had a really really hard time adapting to this earlier this week. And I tried to talk to Katie about it and she shut me down hard. She pretty much told me I'm not allowed to have feelings because I live at camp. This really really hurt me! I was warned by my boss's wife that she would hurt me, but it still hurts. I HATE that people don't understand me. I hate that people don't understand HOW HARD it is to be single, and to live in a way that you can't feel at home where you live because you aren't married. This all happened on the way to my really special bible study at church, where Katie is in my small group. Making me feel now even shut-down there. I really want to throw in the towel of having relationships with people. I hate feeling hurt and people hurt you. I don't know what to do with Katie. She isn't one that you can approach. She doesn't understand that people besides her has feelings too. I have been thinking about leaving camping ministry and go out and getting a normal job. Living in a normal apartment and living a normal life. It seems so ideal-so easy, so grown-up! But, I know from my praying adventures in January about that other job, I'm not ready to leave and I can't run away from my problems/discontentment. 

I am struggling in praying for reals lately. I have fear in trusting The Lord. I know that isn't his will, but it isn't something I have overcome yet. Moving forward is hard. Praying about the inability to pray is as well. BUT I know i need to push through. I know that I have influences that are trying to kill me, but I can't let that consume me or overtake me!

Bible study homework from last week: