Skip to Latin America

Woke up this morning to see a notification on my phone that I got a email copy of skip's latest newsletter.  Being that we haven't talked in months this is my only updates I get on his life (outside of Facebook) 

And though, I know everything is in Gods timing of this. I'm having a hard time with this. Im having a hard time imaging living my life in Latin America. I do not have the ability to learn a foreign language and I DO NOT EAT BEANS! And that's pretty much all they eat there. 

Part of me right now is not up for this plan of God's. I'm not bailing out, but it seems SO LONG until it happens and not being picture perfect as I see it in my head. 

One of my dearest friends from college just celebrated her birthday, and looking at her Facebook, knowing her and the life she leads. I get a little envious. She has the perfect body, she has a spirit that makes her a joy to be around, she has a heart to follow Christ and the guts to be strong and faithful in that in pretty much any situation. She is adventous, daring  and real. I want and wish to be more like that. I think I need to break through some walls and fears that I have to be at that place.

But to do that I may need to leave where I'm at and go be at a place where I feel safe and secure to do that. California and this mountain gives me excess amounts of fear. I want to go out and be adventous but want that safe person to call if it all blows-up in my face. 

This is my root of the constant feeling of stuck. How do I really, really break free of this and be at that place where that happens. Maybe I need to start praying for that person to come into my life and be that for me and experience that here and now. Though I imagine that person being skip, I may need a fill-in until that time comes.