Answering hard questions

Ham and I have talk a lot via text message the last few days. I love that! It's really great and special to me. Last night I was telling him about my great day of giving boy advice to6th grade girls. And in this he REALLY emphasize being friends first. Like we aren't there yet(that's what I read into it) Then him being a great guy that he is, he starts telling me what The Lord has been teaching him at a conference he has been attending. His follow up question to that was "what has The Lord been teaching you lately?" lets talk about how every conversation The Lord and I have the past 3 weeks been on ham and skip. And that The Lord has been teaching me so much of him by ham. How do you respond to that? Ham and I have been and need to be really honest friends at this point, I can't lie to him, and I think he knew where my answer was going to go from our previous conversation. So I started sharing about being done with skip, forever. And how I have been relying on The Lord and have found joy in Him in the process. But as I said this and hear his response, I'm pretty sure he sees himself as my rebound. And that is hard. He is all about doing the right thing, and I think he is going to slow us down. Talk to me less. He is no idiot, I am sure he realizes that he has a lot to do with no more skip. As much as I want to date this guy and have lots of fun with him. I think I know I need to be smart in my actions. He has been hurt big time when he got divorce. We aren't 100% on the same track right now. This all could end in a huge ugly mess. I'm at a place where I really respect ham in making good decisions in life. And even if I don't like slowing down, letting ham not feel like my rebound, I may be the right decision and I really need to honor right decisions now.

I really respect ham, more so than most others in my life. I think my respect for him draws me to him the most.