Learn more and do more

There's a girl sitting on my couch working on her research paper for Bible college, it's a 5 page paper on holiness, on Friday she had a 10 page paper due on "Acts" and giving a full background of the book. 

I am so thankful I'm not in school and not in the paper writing/worksheet filling/textbook reading stage in my life. 

I am so thankful that I am still learning, but getting to do so in different ways. I can listen to podcasts at my leisure, I get to try out new things at work. I can pick what books I read. 

I love writing, I learn so much from having to put mythoughts down on paper. But the thought of having to do a formal writing with citing sources and formal languages makes me on-edged. I don't want to do that at all. I like to write my thoughts, and not make it fancy. 

I loved school. I loved the friends, the boys, the community, the fun you can have when you are having avoiding those awful papers. 

I have a good life here where I am at, but I think there is so much more that is going to come my way. I am living a too simple of a life. 

I think I need to become more materialistic. I need to think and care about my weight, hair, skin, and clothes way more than I do. 

I need to spend time with people outside of my bosses family. But really, I'm so content sitting at home watching old shows on YouTube--- I don't even have Netflix-- but there is more to life than TV, I'm sure there is. 

I need to embrace it and start doing it.