Speaking

My roommate left, and I spent 3-4 evenings home  by myself feeling half content, half lonely. By day 5 I needed a friend, so I insisted that the guy who always comes over come over and hang out with me. We somehow started to get into these huge and heated debates about very non-important things, things like gap years, bible college and if it's okay to fund raise for it, the poor and lazyness. I think this is the first time I realized HOW DIFFERENT we are, and how open we are in our views.  We are really comfortable with each other which means we are real real with each other which means we often bring out the ugly in each other. It's good though, that it doesn't have a long term effect on us. 

It's fun for me to be friends with this random guy and not feel like our relationship may end up in marriage. If fact I love knowing that it won't. I don't have this pressure to change out of my sweatpants when he comes,  or have to have perfect make-up. Because I don't need to impress or woo him. 

I'm at the airport right now. About to fly to my parents house. It seems like I should be overly excited, reflective or just have more emotions about it. But I'm very " what ev"About it,Very funny.