everyday life with The Lord is morphing

I have been living life now for almost half a month without blogging. Though that's average for most people it's strange for me.

 A lot has happened in me-- with my character and relationship with God. 

I was in week 7 lesson 5, of my bible study homework when I was finally able to really honestly pray. And to really pray about Skip.

It may not sound like a huge surrender, but it is. It is me coming to God in prayer and asking Him to work in my life in the way I don't understand. I feel like I repeat myself over and over again when I pray about skip. I feel like God already spoke and I don't need to keep praying about it.  It is already set-up. 

But I'm learning that prayer is getting to know God. I don't need to fill my time with The Lord with lists of wants, but seeking to know him. I need to know the side of God that can speak to me. Tell me what is to come and understand that side of our relationship. To grow and become really okay with the relationship he designed us to have. To learn from him what that should look like in everyday life. 

The next day, I prayed out loud--in my car while driving. I talked for 20-ish minutes. The Lord told me to read Corinthians--I haven't actually done that fully yet.... It needs to come ...