How to recover from the best times of our lives

I have been wanting to rewatch Gilmore Girls from start to finish for about 6 months now. I first decided to wait until summer was over, then have it be what I start when jack and Katie left. I'm almost at a full week from their departure, and I can't get myself to turn it on.

You see, Gilmore Girls was the token tv show during the best year of my life. The year that I interned in Wisconsin. The year that I had close and real friends within my house. The year I was stretch and grown as a person on this earth as well as really growing and getting what it means to follow Jesus. 

The year I understood conflict and how to honor Christ in that(both successfully and in failure) the year where I discovered ice canoeing, how to belay, how to fix a bow for archery and how to facilitate a small group in team building. It was a great year. 

And though at this very moment things aren't bad they aren't as perfect as it was then. And I wonder, really wonder.. How do you recover from really great experiences? 

I struggled so much when I moved from my ideal camp in Wisconsin, to a really hard camp in Minnesota. And I wonder, was the camp really that terrible in MN? Or did it just seem that way because I just came from the promise land?

I am learning a lot this fall from my two bible studies. I feel like I have been extremely busy for it being the slow camping season at camp. My life has been filled with things; I feel like I have to now fight for alone time-which is a really good place to be. 

I have mentioned before, but I have felt the pressure about my budget for work and being so far from having our income match what we need to make this year. 

I have been crunching numbers and working and trying to figure out how to make it happen. How to be close with the buget. And in adding in how we are doing in October and the excess we had come in this spring. There is a really really good chance that I will make it. Or the worst case scenario, only be short $10,000. (A month ago I was projected at being $40,000 or more short) which is exciting, really really exciting. The program side of camp is doing terrible (they are about $40,000 short this fall and their total income should be $67,500) so I am realizing that not all the blame is on my shoulders and it's not all my fault. 

I had a chance to influence what my income will be for 2015 to set that budget. And I played it safe. I really really want it to be less stress next year. I don't want to feel like I am constantly failing, constantly behind. But instead have fun and embrace the ministry and work that The Lord is doing within the budget that we are making. 

I got sidetracked there. But that's okay, it's my blog right?! :) 

It's Sunday, and I'm working in the office. I think it's time to listen to this weeks sermon!