Waiting for an email

I saw a job posting last week at a camp that caught my eye. It is close to family (like my sister's house is only 1.5 hours away) in the mid-west, on a beautiful lake.

I promised my boss that I wouldn't apply for another job without talking to him about it first. So, I didn't apply--instead I emailed the director a list of logistical questions about the role and what it would look like to work for this camp.


That was Tuesday night, and now it is Friday, and I haven't heard back from him. I only told one person that I am looking at a job, she is the only person I feel like I can say anything to at this point. SHe thinks enough time has gone by that I can call the director at the new camp and ask him my questions over the phone.

I don't feel ready for that. That feels a little too forward and difficult to do.

I don't know where I want to end up.

I really do love that job were I am at. There really are great groups that I get to work with and I love my boss and his family. I have a really sweet gig here.

But...

But I would love to be back in the mid-west. I would love to not be on a mountain with its scary steep hills, and getting really car sick for hours every time I want to travel to a store.

I would love to have family that can drive to me.

I would love to know that I have cousins and my sister close to me.

I would love to be within 15 minutes of a grocery store, and not just a small janky store, but a few grocery stores, and Wal-mart and fun things like swimming pools, mini golf, and community theater.

I am anxious about this. I really want to have a replied email from this place in my inbox so I know if this is something I should move forward with or if I should put it to rest.

The unknown is killing me right now.

I just want to know if this is part of my future.