In my baptist church in college, I had a mentoring couple that guided me through many things and while I was obsessing over Phil -- Leslie encourage me to get to know mick and skip. I recall a conversation I had with her once while shopping- I was going on and on about my strategy about how to get close to Phil and she turns to me and tells me "you should like skip instead" mind you this was a season of my life where I would have to easdrop on conversations around review his name, in case I needed up being in the same social circle as him. I think it is incredible that The Lord was preparing me for this years before he spoke truth directly at me, I wonder if God would of spoke more clearly to me on that time if I was more open to listen. I wonder how much fun and impactful my life would be if I pursued friendship with skip right when I met him instead of wasting time trying to convince Phil that he wanted to pursue me. I tend to let the "what ifs" drag me down in the ground. But here in this story in my life, it doesn't. Even if I could of gone differently, I am confident that this story here and now will strengthen me more than the "what ifs" situations and with that I am grateful.
Fear: what if this really is another Phil of the future story? What if I pass up really great potential relationships for this promise and skip ends up marrying some random girl? Not only is that a wasted love story... What would that do in me and God's relationship? These questions are hard to ask... I ask them all the time yet I still cringe asking... Half for saying I could mistake Gods voice. half knowing this questions are worthless to ask because God spoke to me and asking these questions doubts his promise.
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