Fear affairs

Yesterday I was telling you about hearing half-stories about a local pastor. I then learned the whole story, he was having a secret affair with a women for a few years. 

The secret doesn't surprise me. What other types of secrets come out of pastor's lives like this? It's almost always them having a secret affair for years. 

It doesn't change the fact that hearing these stories scare me, so incredibly much. 

It scares me in how easily I could potentially end up being in an affair with someone-- My whole job is working closely with churches (often pastors) to bring their group up to camp. So often I work closely-one-on-one with a pastor for weeks, if not years on a really cool event that brings him to this beautiful  place for a weekend, often without his wife. 

Now, there are so many other things going, and I don't think I ever have had a retreat leader pursue that type of relationship with me, but that could turn out to be my story if I'm not intentional of making sure that's not my story. 

My boss is a man who is just 10 years older than me, and we get along great. We work well together and we are friends. And because we get along and work so well together, I fear that someone is going to accuse us of having an affair, and make one of us get fired or other terrible drama. I am intentional about being in places where you can see me through the windows if we are working at night, not being alone with him around camp etc.. 

I just got a new manager who is super close to my age and we will be working more closely together than me and my boss, so now I feel like I have to be as equally carful with him as I am with my boss.

Me, being the age I am, single, and my job makes me so vulnerable to being the "other women" listed to any pastor's affair confession--their mistress's often fit my description. 

That's scary! I don't want to be that type of women or appear to be that type. I hate that so many people's lives who look similar to mine is wrapped up in this life.