Give thanks

Today is thanksgiving and my roommate and I hosted a small get-together at our house. This morning was fun! We were cooking and cleaning. She is really really good at cooking, I can survive (kinda) in the kitchen. So I love to cook and bake with her, I learn a ton, she is fun to work with and it is overall really enjoyable. 

We had 3 people come over, the guy with is always at our house and another couple from camp. Our food tasted amazing, but our meal was so quiet, awkward, it was very surfacely. Then everyone left and I was home alone. 

It's strange. I didn't really know how to handle today. I don't really know my place. I really want to be a person that celebrates holidays and celebrates them well. In singleness, I think holidays are the hardest to do. I am at a place where I can't have it my way, but just trying to survive through them.