Come along side of me.

Skip is saying "I love you :)" to another girl on facebook. I feared their relationship, and obvious that it is more serious than I want to admit that it is.

Where does this leave me?

I am struggling with this. I don't know what I think. I want to move on, I want to be married to have a guy to do life with me. I have a crush on that guy I did that camp tour with a few weeks ago, do I need to pursue that?

How does this affect my relationship with God?

I don't know, I'm scared to find out. I feel like throwing in the Skip towel. I feel like I'm done and open to new things, but don't know how to get the new things started. But, I haven't prayed about it. I haven't prayed about anything lately. I feel like I am just doing it on my own and don't want or know how to get back to where I need to be.

I feared that this day would come. They aren't married yet, but I am out of the Skip picture right now and have nothing to show for it.

I don't know what I want my life to look like. But I want it to change. I want to have a person that comes along side of me.

I had a dream that my cousin's husband set-me up with this amazing guy who was going to San Diego for a business trip and that we went on the best blind date ever! I want something special like that. I want a guy to seek me out, is kind, loves the Lord and wants to teach me how to fish, kayak, etc.

I feel like I have the "wants" real bad right now. I shouldn't be so selfish, I should be grateful for what the Lord has given me. I shouldn't want.