Charismatic Christian train: part 1 of 100,000

I'm reading"Surprised by the Voice of God" by Deere. I started this book about 3 years ago, but put it on the shelf and forgot about it. I saw a friend on Facebook was reading it, and decided I needed to pick it up and see what I could learn from God in it and assess if I need to become a scary charismatic Christian. 

Anything charismatic scares me...a lot. They are always the really weird people, and they tend to burn you and creep you out. I really can't handle it. But charismatic people and closeness to the Holy Spirit seem to go together. So I'm reading this book-with a grain of salt. I have learned so far that Elijiah did crazy things for God. But the Bible says "he is a man just like us" just like us...God doesn't do crazy things with people because its a special time or place. But that God does that consistently, it's in his character. "These weren't the only special people or the only special times. Anyone who knows God is a special person living in a special time" 

The person described in this quote is me. Reading the Bible is typically like taking medicine. You do it because you should, it's good, but try to get it over with as soon as possible (disclaimer: the last 5 weeks have been mostly different) 

Though I'm a skeptic of this book, I really do wonder if it's so hard to read the Bible, because I don't see the God in there, the same as the God that I love in my heart, and do not expect him to be the same in his word as in real life. 

God calling me to wait and love and marry skip is very charismatic, way more charismatic than I am. But maybe to grow and be closer to God, I need to widen up my view of him and let him work in my life in ways that seem only for those crazy-scary Christians. And be open to joining that train, in loyalty and obedience to God. 

Maybe...

I think if that's the case, my life will look different than it does now AND different than those scary Christians.