Not Everything Will be What I Think it Will Be.

About a week ago, I opened up a facebook notification that Skip was engaged to the girl he has been dating. In the past, this was my biggest fear, but in the moment, it didn't faze me. I felt prepared for it, I thought it would have happened long before it did. I already gave up on that thought and moved on. 

It did surprise me, how well I took it, I was taken back by my own emotions. It made me question if I was numb to God. I kinda felt like I still didn't know what to do, but I really didn't take time to think about, it was just a passing thought. 

Fast forward to today. My roommate and I declared it "church on the couch" day. As we sat in our living room, multi-tasking due to such a slow internet connection, not really paying attention because of ALL the buffering breaks, I heard a point that came home to me in such a personal level about Skip. 

It was from Isaiah 9, the classic, "unto us a child is born" Christmas passage. A declaration of what is to come. God's people took God's word and in their minds interpreted it to mean something, they had Jesus taking over the worldly governments as a mental picture in their heads when their head this prophesy. Then 700 years later, Jesus comes and they all missed it, because it didn't match exactly what they were thinking when God told them what was exactly going to happen. 

I don't want to miss it. I still think there is a reason God told me what he told me. I don't think that it is going to look how I thought it was going to look anymore. Instead, now, I need to live how I think God wants His people to live, and be able to look back on God's words and see how He did what He would do, in ways I couldn't see coming.