It's an off day...

It's one of those days where I don't feel quite right; I'm not mad or sad, or happy, I am just am. I don't want to be by myself or with people. I don't really get this emotion. I think I need some good conversation to sort out these feelings I don't get.

I also feel like me and the boy who always come over are in this funny relationship, and I want it to stop. I feel like I've become this unique girlfriend to him. It's not bad, bad, I'm not uncomfortable-- it doesn't feel like a pretend relationship. But I don't want him to think that weare in a relationship or headed that way. I don't want to feel coupled up with him. I don't want to feel so alone that he is the only person I can be around.