Prayer processing part 2

Read this:

[i flipped the page--reason for 2 pictures-- nothing was edited out of this paragraph]

These paragraphs makes sense to me. It makes me feel satisfied in my role of prayer. It's still meaningful if I engage The Lord in it, and I don't have the pressure or guilt of the world failing by not me engaging in prayer enough. But I am struggling in accepting this as truth--biblical truth. I feel like I like this happy medium too much.theres no scripture that backs this up, how do I know that this is right? This Bible study has put me on a whirlwind of ways to think and process how to pray. Putting this in the mix seems too easy.

I am processing a lot of biblical/spiritual things today. I should pray and seek clarity on this and the other that I share about below. 

I think I'm changing a lot spiritually these days. I am thinking, processing and chewing on truths and thoughts lots more than I have in the past. 

 (Another is from exodus, and God killing 3,000 people for claiming to worship God, but made themselves a golden calf and actually just worshipped themselves, and pretended to worship God--and how that applies to my life and world now)