Sailing in the waves: Talking it out

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Talking it out

So I really felt the need to start blogging about a month ago, but I followed through today, my first 2 blogs are a month old, and this here is real time 😊
Overall I have two common thoughts this week:

1. I feel so alone when I am with people because I am always the odd one out (3rd wheel, 9th wheel) and can't even do anything about it ( like join eharmony) how should i handle social things and why is this so hard for me?

2. God is trying to do something big in my life right now and I am scared of it and cannot allow myself to be open to it. Deep inside I know that what he wants to do is good. but I am not allowing myself to read and pray without this distancing panic going through me.

This two things are really messing me up. I daily wonder if I should see professional help... And if you can actually get help professionally for this?

I realize that both these things aren't that big, but man are the making things rough for me lately. Hope I'm more uplifting soon!
Ps I decided I should blog instead of getting professional help, same thing right?

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How to Read this Blog

This isn't a blog where you learn how to make your house cute, lose weight, style your hair, dress stylishly or literally sailing in the ocean.

Instead, it's my life in real time, the type of blog where you have to start at post one and move your way to today to really get it the whole picture.

This blog shows the real me, it's where I let out my feelings if they need an outlet, where I process things The Lord is teaching me and share victories he has made clear to me. Where I ask the hard questions and talk about the things on my heart that are too hard to say outloud, that are too fragile to let friends voice their opinion over.

I let my ugly out here often. When I get mad, really mad, I turn here to this blog to tell about it. Sometimes in talking about it, I realize how ridiculous I sound, and see what is actually going on, and I then share that. Sometimes I don't, and the point of the post was just to let it out. We aren't always pretty following Christ, and you get to see that in me here.

This blog is FULL of spelling mistakes and grammar errors. I often don't go back and read over my posts. when I do that, I find myself restructuring my sentences and making myself sound better than I really am. The whole point of this is NOT to do that, so instead you get the typos, hopefully you will still understand what I am trying to say.

I have been learning ALOT in this time blogging and I hope you learn something too as you read along.